thoughts.

so like ive been told that ii can do so much better, theres so many guys out there, why am ii still helluh stuck on him, because ii love him, ii really do. even tho he hurt me many times over and over again, ii cant seem to stay mad at him. ii cant help but to forgive him for his mistakes. call me stupid, but thats how ii am. ii dont take relationship like a game where yu can jst quit wen yur gettin tired. ii really wish ii can talk to him and work things out, but im scared, it doesnt seem like he wants to so why bother ? ii dont want to make us awkward when we talk if ii bring it up. yah ii think way too much what ifs, and im not brave enough to confront when its a situation like this. it doesnt sound like me ehh, im usually helluh loud, doing stuff, not carin what other thinks or say. but ii guess theres nothing else ii can do about, if he wants to stay as friends, then ill respect his decision. even tho deep down in me, ii knw ii really wanna be with him, ii dont want to show it because ii dont want him to feel bad for what hes making me feel.